gah

i have a friend and i trust her. but now that trust i think is broken. she lied to me. and now i'm hurt.

i miss..

1. my mom
2. america
3. washington
4. kent
5. highschool
6. my friends
7. osc
8. mr. poplin
9. mr. richter
10. chef sandler
11. kevin
12. the mall
13. driving
14. an automatic car
15. muffins
16. a steak
18. cold weather
19. desperate housewives
20. wireless internet
21. t-mobile cell phone
22. white people
23. black people
24. koreans
25. mexicans
26. samoans
27. the club
28. hooka
29. a lake
30. my straightner
31. my curling iron
32. my hairspray
33. unlimited texting
34. people speaking english
35. dingo
36. holly
38. josh
39. evan
40. kalei
41. heather
42. katie
43. a boy
44. holding hands
45. kisses
46. being in his arms
47. being american

wow, its been months

it's so wierd seeing my xanga all different.
but my last entry i was still thinking i was moving to lake meridian.
and i was packing for the philippines.
and now i am in the Philippines.
man
time goes by fast.
i am sitting here in the living room of my aunt's house in the philippines and i can't believe i am already here. like it's been like 6-7 weeks that i've been here and it's so hard to believe. i still cant believe i moved. i can't believe i was that brave to move.
my family is so wonderful out here
like they are so supportive and i see them everyday
we are really a close knit family.

and yes i do miss my friends but i mean i can't miss them forever cause if i only think about coming back home i won't open my life here and that's one thing i need to do.

i miss will too.
i mean how did i get myself into having a boyfriend the WEEK before i left?
and i know most of my friends if not all of them think that our relationship is pathedic, which personally it is but i mean.. it's not like i met him a week before i left. i have known him since june. and it's wierd how i can miss him, but sadly i do.

i think the friends i miss the most is kalei, nichole, ariel, ashley, and holly.
leonia has been wierd lately and i don't like the way she has been acting. and i don't like that she doesn't talk to any of our friends either. i just don't know about that situation. there isn't much that i can do, i am a million miles away.

i think it's good for me. i was so fed up with the stupid drama at home. i mean we are graduated from high school yet we still have middle school drama. i am really glad i came here.

other than all that jazz.

i start school soon! ahhh i am so scared.
i might be the only white chick. and i don't know how to speak tagalog. how intimidating. i mean everyone at school knows tagalog and english. i only know english. gah and some german....but who speaks german in the philippines...

wow i'm sad.
i can't think of anything else to write.
so i'm gonna go to sleep,, it's about almost 11 pm i think. while its about 8 am in seattle. seattle...

everytime i watch grey's i miss seattle.
speaking of grey's i hella spent 38,10 on season 4 of grey's on itunes.
my mom is gonna kill me

i can't believe only 7 more weeks of high school left.

i'm so excited. i mean i've been in school for 13 years now. when i wake up the next morning i'm just going to be like.."now what?"
but yeah. i'm getting ready to pack for the philippines and to move to lake meridian. it's going to be so weird living in another place other than my original house. it's actually really sad. i have so many memories from my house. like sneeking out, having people over, karaoke, the love beds, other stuff too.

my mom told me that all the money that they earn from selling some of our stuff they are giving to me to buy a cell phone down in the philippines. its gonna be about $300 cause i want a nice phone. plus the phones are about a year advanced.

haha so when i come back in march its gonna be all high tech and what not.
when i come back in march i hella wanna be like dark and have an accent. but i know i won't

i dont know what else to write about.

except that prom is soon. YAY! =]
and then graduation
then philippines =]